Finding a Name

I thought finding a name for our baby would be so easy...it's not. My husband and I are going through every name in the book and honestly his choices don't match with mine. The only name we can semi agree on is "Hurayrah" meaning kitten, as cute as that name is I'm not in love with it yet.....to be continued.

3rd Ultrasound

Today was my 3rd ultrasound, and from my past experiences I was slightly dreading it. The last time I went the woman was very sharp, rude and refused to answer even the simplest questions I had (gee thanks lady this is my first pregnancy and I'm nervous enough as it is). This time around however, was a much better experience. The woman I had today was very nice and told me things I didn't even have to ask about, plus I got 5 pictures of my beautiful baby girl :D.
MashAllah I was told she's definitely grown in the last 2 weeks (as have I ), she appears to be just over four pounds and is developing quite well :). InshAllah about 6 weeks to go, and we can't wait for her to arrive.

I'm having a.....

.....girl :D, it's official after 7 months I finally know the sex of the baby, now it's time to pick out a name and buy some pink, alhamdulillah we're so excited!!!

So Frustrated With My Doc

Last week I found out I have to go for a second ultrasound, I was told when I went for my first ultrasound here that I would only need a second one if there was something wrong with the baby, so of course I got worried. My husband and I went down to the doctor right away to find out what was going on since no one will tell us anything over the phone. The doctor said my baby looked 1.5 weeks smaller than it should be....if that's in weight or length I don't know. The baby is very active in my tummy so I'm not too too worried but still I wonder if my birth weight had anything to do with this ( i was 6 lbs at full term birth while my mom gained 40 pounds during pregnancy) or if it's just because I'm not a huge person to begin with. I don't know and the doc really didn't seem to say what could be the issue. On top of this I was also told I might not have a doctor avail to take me on during the last few months of my pregnancy and that all the other doctors are avail in September ( a month after my due date arg). This is my first pregnancy and no one is telling us anything, we first came to this doc a week after I got back from Syria ( in mid April ) and it makes me wonder why if they knew there was such a back up why in the world did they wait until the end of May to request a Doctor to deliver the baby. I really would prefer not to have a man deliver my baby, it might happen . I was also told to consider a midwife, honestly I know nothing about them, I know of some people who have had a good experience with them but I think I would feel more comfortable with a doctor, at least for my first child.....Canadian health care is declining, things were better for my mom than they are for me, what is going on?????

Last Thursday's sonogram

I went for my one and only sonogram here in Canada. MashAllah the baby looked so big and healthy to me, the technician wouldn't say anything good or bad but watching the baby move it's little mouth and hold it's hand above it's head gave me a feeling that this baby is strong and healthy inshAllah (of course the daily beatings I get in my stomach add to that reassurance).
I wasn't told the sex of the baby, it's up to my doctor, but I doubt she will tell me either. So many people have been told and given the opportunity to know ahead of time, why is it any different for me? Don't I have the right to know? Obviously I'm not going to have an abortion, and at 6 months it's illegal to do in Canada anyway.

Only 3 Months Left

Getting pregnant in Syria, at the time seemed like a good idea, but lack of tools, minimal understanding of Arabic and the constant preasure to keep eating 24/7 really did nothing for me. Now back in Canada I have about 3 months left until my due date ( august 22/08), and I'm not really prepared at all. I've been watching "Birth Stories" everyday and to be honest when I see those women give birth I cringe and am completely frightened for the day I will be the one having a 7 pound baby rip through me. Don't get me wrong though, I want to be a mother, probably more than anything else in this world, I'm just extremely scared. My husband is so opposite of me right now, he's so calm and relaxed, mashAllah. The only thing he has on his mind right now is finances, and how in the world we are going to afford all the things a baby needs. I'm starting to wonder were we just not quite ready for a baby or is this just the normal jitters everyone feels temporairly before a baby comes and changes your life forever?